Please help me allow You to be my everything.

I just want to fall in love with Christ and no one else. I long to forget this world and its inhabitents and focus on the only one who loves me for me. The only one who knows me yet still loves compltely. I am such a failure and this world lies to me and tells me I am worthless, ugly, and not good enough. However, I know different. I know that God love me the way He created me. Sure I have much to work on, but I know that Jesus is strong when I am weak.
I long to be broken before You.
Bleeding so that You can heal these wounds.
I want to live for You.
But first I must die.
So kill me.
Take from me what You must.
Do whatever you must,
Take what you need to,
To make me nothing but yours completly.
Love Forever,
Brittany Kirkland

There must be more to this

Or course I know there is. I only wish to know God's will for my life. Oh God how I love music! You have placed this desire within me for a reason. The way my soul stirs when I hear a song and begin to sing and play for You. But when? Where? I don't know what to do to get where You want me to be. I become so angry with myself for not knowing, for waiting and knowing I am not doing all I could to find out. Can't you just hit me over the head or stike me with lightning or something? You know how bad I long fo this... I just can't seem to get there.
Scream at me.
Stop my breathe until I hear You.
Tell me what You want from me.
Becasue all I want it You.

Love Forever,
Brittany Kirkland